Monday, December 27, 2010
i'm going crazy soon... am i that easy to chase after or wat... why are you all treating me like that... i really hate that.... i wanna be angry with you but i can't.... i really dunno wat to do... you are not the first guy to treat me like that... but why me... why me...this is not wat i wan... i just wan a nice an pure relationship that i won't be hurt... is it that difficult??? tell me la... is it??? i really so not know what else i can do le... why don you teach me... am i too easy to coax or lie to... I REALLY HATE THAT !!!!!
Fire Love @1:35 AM;
Sunday, September 12, 2010
was happy to see your name in my phone when the phone ring... but when you started to speak, you said " dear can you please remove my photos, i don't like my photos to be posted on the face book"... i was shocked and don't know what to reply....what can i say??? can i say no, i won't remove... i would still put it on... do you think I'll do that??? kind of hate that kind of feel... what are you scared of ??? scared people see or you scared 'b' to see... after that call, i really doubt about it... am i that scary or are you that flirt... no one could answer but only you... but the problem is do you think i would ask you directly??? no... not possible... i won't ask you directly... there is goes... i would start thinking and wondering this and that.... i don't like that feeling but i just can't force my brain not to go and think about it...HAIZ....
Fire Love @6:27 PM;
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Work work work.... Is that the kind of life i want? Or the colleagues are just too irritating which made me get so tired of my workplace... I am a person who will be affected very easily irregardless what i am doing... But i just want to like the job I'm working at... Why are you all making me to hate the centre... I just wanna try and make friends with all of you and make my life more easier but it doesn't seems so... Why must you all label me... Being more chatty with the colleague which all of you don like is that my fault... Maybe i have to pay certain consequences on what i have already done but not to the extend that you need to outcast me... THIS IS SO NOT FAIR TO ME !!! I REALLY HATE THAT !!! DO you like someone to outcast you and make you not belonging to the "family" ??? Can anyone teach me what i can do to make myself feel better??? I really hate that feeling... Oh my god... This starts to make me go crazy soon... ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...........
Fire Love @10:05 PM;
Sunday, January 10, 2010
la la la... half a year is gone and i'm back here... things are changing always but i am still standing at the same spot... things are happening too quickly that i do not know how to react... my feeling is also swaying as time goes by... i'm full of regret....
many things had been happening to me till i'm so tired right now... feel like falling on the ground and have a big cry... wondering what i have done wrong that the ending product wasn't wat i want...
firstly, relationship ended and there are many loose end that i need to keep... no one out there are able to help me and i believe if i tried my best and the loose end is still not kept, i have to give up on it... but why it would turn out like that...
secondly, my school work... there seems like things are not able to finish... when i have finished with one assignment, there is anoher one coming in... things seems never ending...
lastly, family are asking me not to befriend this not to befriend that... i know they are caring for me but i just wanna have the choice of my friends by myself... who i wanna be with who i wanna know, i wanna choose my own... if another truble out there, i'll learn and overcome by myself... i'm big enough to decide le...
Fire Love @10:47 PM;
Monday, June 1, 2009
life as usual nothing special but holiday coming... wahahaha... no more practicum for the time being... so can kind of rest my brain because no need to thing what to teach children anymore... on the other hand, my last practicum will start Nov (if i never remember wrongly),is my last yet mot important because field sup is coming to see me and grade my teaching skill... oh my god.... wonder how i would be graded... lol... how wish i can graduate without field sup to come and view me...
it would be so stressful if someone i don't know to see me teach and some more my English is private limited... i'm so worried...as day goes by , i go the feel that i'm getting older and older because i could see more and more younger children around me calling me teacher liting teacher liting.... before that i was still calling my teacher that... but now is my turn... oh my... time is really going so fast that i didn't realise so many things had started to change... soon i'll become auntie liting... oh no....
Fire Love @1:41 AM;
Friday, May 8, 2009
so late in the night but dunno why suddenly got the feel to come here blog... felt so tired but yet can't sleep still need to do the stupid art statement... wonder I'm studying early childhood or studying arts... headache lor... so hard to write... guess this my first time writing and will be my last time... don wish to have one more time... guess i will go crazy soon if i need to write art statement again...recently life seems to become a life of wait for the day to come den decide wat i will to do kind... even want o confront him but in the end i did not... too lazy and busy to do all those things le... and i see no use confronting a person when the person purposely wanna hide thins from others... wonder if i really should go and confront him and hurt myself or should i just don bother and let it just past like that.. will that be better.... like really don go how well i thought i wanted it to be... life seems a little miserable for me nowadays....
Fire Love @2:07 AM;
Monday, March 23, 2009
Ever since last year , i feel that to maintain a friendship is not as easy as what i always imagine... Friendship can just break within the same minute when you say hi or bye to that person... A friendship which last for at least 6 years can be very good initially but after an outing, after we say goodbye, our friendship will just end right at the moment... Is it so difficult to maintain a good friendship??? If it is so difficult, how come i am able to see people continuing their friendship for decades,why they don't have any problem.... Haiz...Recently, i could see that more and more people are breaking their friendships,what have actually happen... Izzit all because people are more into relationship rather den friendship?? Or maybe there are more reasons to that ???
Fire Love @11:57 AM;